(August 31, 2010)
After lunch, Mami brought my favorite sippy cup
out to the war-zoned backyard construction site.
She sidestepped threaded rods and stumbled along
to the cinder blocks where Papi and I would drink.
He’d say there was no better way to quench thirst
than sipping some 80 proof Superior Bacardi—
the ritualistic elixir that fuels our island life,
ever-present since my preschool days. I won’t lie,
sometimes I long for that stagnant stench of beer
and spiced rum that would cool us down, our team.
I remember how I thought of myself as Papi’s son,
and how bitter Mami wanted a daughter with smooth hands.
Getting banished from my “unladylike” playground,
my helpless cries fell deaf on Papi’s unseeing eyes:
I learned that treason came in different shades
of pink pointe shoes and sequined leotards.
Photographs show my sticky hair slicked back in a bun,
and my feet bound in satin ribbons, but I know
blotches of blush can’t hide the handyman’s helper.
Who knows who I’d see if Papi weren’t blind.